Clear Confusions

2008-08-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

Now I am clear
I am very confused
I will let her go...maybe
But I will still hang on and keep her tight... forever in my heart
Such a foolish wim
Such desperate attempts
My heart can take only so much more
I wonder when one beat will be the rest and I am no more
Be broken down to pieces that can't be put together

One of the Things to Clean up and Update

2007-05-31T20:38:00.000+08:00

Just passing by to start looking at what to do with my blog.

Challenges ahead of me are imminent.

Must Prepare.

Practice.

and then Engage!.

XD

5 Final Bosses

2007-04-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Boss 1: ADVANSE
HP: 30/30
Skills: Concept Storm
Refactor HP - Extracts a portion of your hp depending on the technique used.

Boss 2: THEOCOM
HP: ???/???
Skills: Finite Automaton - barrages you with letters, symbols and transition functions.
Infinite Automaton - if you are unlucky, you might get to face this skill. instant death!

Boss 3: INTROOS
HP: ???/???
Skills: Huy! - once shouted this skill will make the player attack other party members.

Boss 4: NLANST
HP: ???/???
Skills: Resin - makes the party connect to another dimension, lessens party defense.
Java Beans - these are minions of NLANST. They are cute and cudly but dangerous.

Boss 5: PROBSTA
HP: ???/??
Skills: Normal Distrubution - deals 500hp times 10 shots.
Poisson - Probability 50% inflict with poision then instant death.

Hay~
Bukas na sila.
Lalaban na naman...

Unposted I kinda Forgot.

2007-03-30T08:19:00.000+08:00

I overslept again. I didn't do the text reader damn.

I feel awkward and I feel happy.

Today was a first, a first in my life in which I cried in front of a special friend. A first confrontation and I didn’t run.

It feels great to say what you want to say. A big burden pulled out of my chest.

And I thank my friend for hearing me out. It was embarrassing to cry in front of him/her. But I couldn’t help it as he/she pat my head like I was a helpless child.

I am happy and I thank God for giving the courage to do it.

And I know that this incident will make me and the bond between me and him/her stronger.

I'm sick.

2007-01-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

I'm sick physically.

I'm sick mentally.

maybe emotionally.

its the same old problem.

but this time, its...hard to convey through words.

Helping out others.

2007-01-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

How do you help out others?

I know there is no reason why not to help others in need.

But sometimes how do you it?

I feel that sometimes in order to give good advices, you must first experience them, experience what they have experienced.

But what if you you haven't experienced what they have, what advice can you give?

Do you really need to experience what they feel first in order to comfort them?

Or I am just being a blockhead because I don't know how to comfort others.

I suck at comforting.

I am a good listener and I truly feel sorry and sometimes tears will just go out of my eyes but how to comfort them using words, I don't know how.

Through feelings? , hah! I am already afraid of choosing the right words, what more if what I suddenly do will give more pain rather than comfort.

Yet some part of me says that we aren't perfect and we should just do it! Think not always what the outcome will be because it will not always of what we think it will be.

If the outcome is bad or good, its just as it is.

But hahahaha... whatever.

~monder

Start. Engage. Let's do it!

2007-01-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

The first week of school has started.

Though i think I still lack vacation, got to face the new challenges especially the ojt this coming summer.

Yeah and even if the vacation was extended, I'll just do nothing productive. So it's better to be at school then do nothing at home.

Strange how it seems, when I'm at school I think of many things what to do if only I had the time but when vacation time, I simply forget some of those things and end up bored or just sleep.

That is why its really nice to be back at school. Eat those shawarmas and siomais. XD

Well Got to do my best!

Start.

Engage.

Let's do it!

~monder

3rd Trimester starts tom~!

2007-01-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

3rd Trimester starts tom~!
yeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeye~

~_~

-monder

Getting Lost Again

2007-01-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

I'm getting lost again.

Do you happen to have this kind of experience too?

Where you are sitting or just standing by somewhere...thinking.

What have I been doing since the day I was born? Where, where will life really go into.

I'm already in college and I took up Computer Studies because I like computers... but

I still...feel lost and out of focus.

The same thing that I've done in High School. You pass because you have to.

You don't grasp and understand what you learn fully. you only needed to learn bec. you have to.

You have to pass the god damn subjects...

crap.

Now, even though I'm a regular student, something still feels not right. Maybe I'm just jealous of other people's talents.

I feel that all of that I've learned is not sinking in fully and I'm getting nervous on what job I'll get into.

Those who have failed, I know some of them are geniuses, it doesn't mean that once you failed you are a failure, nahh that's crap!

You all know those great people who didn't do well in school but heck did a lot in life... but me

Haha~

Maybe I'm just stuck as an ordinary student. nothing more. nothing special.

~monder

Post December 28

2006-12-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

Dec. 28, 2006

It’s Ten-ten’s birthday!

She is 1 year old now. Though not as cute as she was young, destroys things, scratches the floor and sometimes irritatingly wakes me up in the morning with her paws,
we love her very much

We still have more experiences to share together and I await the day she will bring out cute puppies!

God, bless ten-ten always!

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We took out the van this morning only to find out it that it was Thursday and those cars which plates end in 8-9 are not allowed to run in the metro. So, mom immediately called us and bid us to return.

I instinctively avoided all the “blue boys” MMDA boys! And with some luck we were able to go back to the house unspotted.

18, "in-between", 20

2006-12-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

I'm Officially 19 years old today.

19 years roaming this world.

How many steps have I taken?

How many gallons of water of have I drank?

How many tons of food have my body consumed?

How many fats have I lost and gained?

I wonder, all these questions leading to one important one..

What have I been doing all these 19 years of my life?

Up until now, the path that I have been trodded isn't straight.

Along the way you will see scattered dreams lying on the muddy soil, others still shinnning

while others I don't know.

And another thing that's for certain is the uncertain horizon which I constantly head towards to without brakes.

Leading me also to wonder...

How many friends have I met? became close and others lost in touch.

How many persons have my childish heart fallen in love with but just stayed as mere feelings...........nothing to talk about.

Demo...mada mada dane!

^___________________________________^ *big smile. XD

Christmas Post

2006-12-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

Its been a while since I've posted.

Today is Christmas yet I can't feel it since there's no celebration in the house. There are no decorations in our house but its somwhat logical since Mom has been busy and we can't afford to put up decors just to pull them down after. It would put a lot of stress for Mom whose hands are starting to ache.

Yeah, it doesn't feel like Christmas, and I kinda miss the times where the Christmas tree would be put up and the gifts lying on the ground are waiting to opened. Tommorow though will be the true celebration as we get up to Tagaytay and celebrate in our tita's mansion.

Ugh, I'll drive a long way, God guide my hands ^_^.

Christmas, Christmas, even without decors, without gifts. We should realize it's true meaning.
"Kahit hindi pasko ay mag-bigayan"
This day is just one of those very special days which we give all out sharing powers and give all our love for each other.

I pray to all those that has been stormed by Milenio and Reming. God Bless them and protect them, give them strength to rise up again.

As for me,

May my corrupted heart be healed and seek not sin but love. Give me the signs so that my true feelings will flow for until now I don't know.

Merry Christmas! minna!

Finals|Chinese - Filipino Relationship

2006-11-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

The finals is nearing soon.
How many finals posts have I placed here.

And how many of them were all about cramming. I think all.

This time around. We have 1 critical subject to pass. And a horde of projects to submit within the next 2 weeks.

After that the dreaded finals.

I hope and pray and ask God again and again to guide over us through this test. Amen.

--------------------------------------------

I didn't know that it's hard when you are a chinese girl specially when you're living with the chinese rules on relationships.

You can't marry a non-chinese.

but what if the girl loves a filipino ? and what if the filipino truly loves the girl?

The girl thinks of her family and to avoid any trouble, the girl even though she loves the filipino will just try to hide and ignore her own feelings but in reality can she really do that.

When the time comes that this happens what will you do?

If you're the guy, even though you'll get rejected by the family, will you still go for it?

If you're the girl, even though its hard to disobey but you really love him, will you go for it?

The answer is hard but most people will say yes go for it...

but it isn't easy...

it's nice if you can break false traditions.

But I know that if it's true love, it will succeed no matter what.

It will be a challenge for both lovers, to overcome the obstacles that hinder their happiness.

A Day Late|Lapit na!

2006-11-02T14:12:00.000+08:00

A Day Late for a post.
To give respect to those I lost.
So now I give a short moment.
...
So now I end this short silence
And pray for those whom we lost.

Isang araw nang nakalipas
Upang mag bigay galang sa mga lumipas
sandaling tumahimik
...
at pagkatapos
ipagdasal ang mga yumao.

LAPIT NA

lapit na, lapit na
ano pa ba ang aking ginagawa
tumayo, tumakbo,
hala sige
ang oras ay hinahabol
kaya ngayon kailangan
nang tumapos.

"Argh, ang daming gagawin, hahahaha"

Monder Function

2006-10-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

/* Mond Function */

public void mondFunc (Food food, Laro laro, Sleep sleep, Work, work)

{

while ( alive == true)

{

for (month = 1; month <>

for (day = 1; day<32;>

for ( hour = 12; hour<25;> {

kain(food);

tulog(sleep);
if ( sinisipag == true)
aral(max, work);
else
aral(min, work);
laro(laro);
}
}

}

Don't Understand? Neither do I.

- monder

A post after a long while

2006-10-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

Congratulations S - 12! For winning the "long" awaited first game.

Ok lang maski pinainit ko lang yung sahig ng 7th floor. Ang importante ay nanalo tayo.
Sa susunod palaro ulit maski 30 seconds lang. Anyway Godspeed at sana panalo ulit sa susunod na game.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

6th Week in School
Dag-saan na naman ang mga gawain. Here comes the machine projects once again.

I am having trouble with Physics but I'll do my best to catch up and prevail.

-=-=-=--=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

I had a emo mode just a few days ago.

I just asked myself where I am really good at. Am I really good at anything? or I am just good at starting things. I have a lot of talents but none of them is my expertise.

A Jack of all trades, yet master of none. How many times more will I stay like that. I really wonder.

Almost everyone of my friends had a distinguishing feature which one can clearly see them with, but me? none. I wonder what people describe me when someone asks, Who is Raymond?

A Basketball player? nope..

A Swimmer? yeah right nope.

An Artist? sana pero hindi rin.

Who? then?

I don't know also.

- Raymond

At last

2006-10-04T08:37:00.000+08:00

At Last, may kuryente na rin.

Crap akala ko magtatagal pa ang kadiliman sa bahay.

Hehe buti na lang at nariyan na ang liwanag.

5 days

2006-10-02T19:13:00.000+08:00

5 days.

Lolz medyo nasasanay na akong maligo in teh darkness!
wahahahahha

4 days and still? counting?

2006-10-01T16:21:00.000+08:00

Thursday....

Friday...

Saturday....

SUNDAY!!!!!!
W($#*)%#*(%$*%()*$(^)*$()^*

Q.C. meron na, Mandaluyong meron na! BKT ANG MAKATI WALA!!!!!

im breaking down.....

Third Week Sunday

2006-09-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

3rd week na naman.

Ambilis ng panahon.
Di na naman ako productive ng weekend

Bakit kasi ang sarap matulog
Buseett

Di naman ako mahilig sa tulog nung Hayskul ah..

AHHHHHHH galiiitttt akkkkkkkoooooo~~~~

Ten Ten is no feeling well.

2006-09-22T08:49:00.001+08:00

Ten - ten my sister isn't feeling well.
She doesn't wiggle her tail so mcuh anymore and get excited when I get to play with her.

*sigh, I wonder whats wrong...

~_~

-monder

Ten Ten is no feeling well.

2006-09-22T08:49:00.000+08:00

Ten - ten my sister isn't feeling well.
She doesn't wiggle her tail so mcuh anymore and get excited when I get to play with her.

*sigh, I wonder whats wrong...

~_~

-monder

Twice a misfortune

2006-09-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

September 19, 2006

My Brother's Birthday.

Lucky for him, not for me.

I came to school with an empty wallet. I had to borrow 50 bucks just to eat. Even though I wanted to eat Shawarma and rice, plus etc. I had no choice but to stick with 8 pieces fried siomai...I just made do with what I had and added chili ^^,. And to go home, luckily there's Silenia. Thanks Const.

2nd, my friend maru and I almost got stuck in a class which is not ours. We were just passing time reading our Filipi handouts and surfing the net in the computer laboratory when suddenly we noticed that the projector in that room was being prepared and when we were about to get out, the teacher came in and started his lecture immediately. His voice was loud and somewhat with authority that we couldn't butt in. Luckily this little girl's voice reached him and in an instant upon telling that we were not his students, everyone in the room were just like the soldiers in metal gear with "!" on their heads all looking at us. Thank God we weren't punished or anything and also that I don't get red physically when embarrassed but that was a nice experience. All we did after was laugh it out. Thank God for maru's *child -like voice* just kidding. Good thing the message patched through. Akala ko pa nga pinariringan na kami eh, ;_;.

Well, that's Twice a misfortune in my brother's 15th birthday.

Happy Birthday Bro~

ja!

-monder

3rd Day of classes

2006-09-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

Simula na naman....

ang kasiyahan...

kailangang mag aral kumanta

kung hindi tayo'y pipiyok

bow..

-monder

2nd Day of 2nd Trimester

2006-09-12T18:44:00.000+08:00

Its the 2nd day of the 2nd trimester.

hirap, pagod at puyat coming soon.

yun lang.

God Bless You all.

Summary Of 1st Term break

2006-09-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

I finished FMA thanks to TJ Cordero hooray!

I started out .hack//Sign again, the 1st one of the series. Now I am looking for the others

Xenosaga 3 is out but I haven't got one yet mega bummer.

I have tons of driving experience.
A couple of which is.

-Battling the rushing drivers who seem to have stomach problems that they sped through EDSA with daring manouvers(errr spelling.)

-a close left turn. In which if it wasn't, then I would've crashed into a Honda Civic.

-And endlessly traffic and driving...

A.D.A went byebye and went to my lil cousins.
Jehuty is fixed! and he's working fine now.

Yeah I ate a lot of Takoyaki. In case you don't know its a japanese delicacy made out of squid, flour and milk i think, and etc. Arggh basta uber sobrang nakakaadik siya eh. this term break I ate 30 pieces. XD

Yeah I also forgot to mention that I finished Dirge of Cerberus.
The most intense battle and irritatin fight was Azul in his final form. Crap! normal bullets can't seem to hit him and ehh I didn't have ether so I sticked with martial arts. And to be able to pull it off, you need to time it in.

I also gained weight.. about 10 pounds I think, thank you Samurai Foods for that and also Chicken Company and Bodhi: Vegetarian Food and my mom too.

I fixed my room! yey only the school files though.

and wala na...tulog!!! sarap matulog...

Now, it's time to battle once more in DLSU.

see ya! tommorrow!

tune in for the next episode in Monder's ramblings.

ja!
-monder

Failure is not for yourself alone.

2006-09-01T09:24:00.000+08:00

Failing.
I know the feeling when I fail quizzes.
But I do not know the feeling of failing a course.
But looking at my friends who failed, looking at their faces.
Despite others still smiling but inside hurting.
Others crying while I helplessly watching.

I don't know what words to say.
I don't know how to comfort people.
I am afraid that what will come out of me will only deal them more pain.
I am scared.
I am a sissy, a coward.

Yet those who fell, I know you'll rise again.
Fall seven times, stand up not only 8 but a thousand times more.
Yeah, I know, easy to say but its the truth.
Its not yet the end.

No matter how angry your parents will be, and how many times they will scold you.
You will be always you, and this must not affect you in a destructive way but instead.
Bring out the best in you, anger knowledge something like that or maybe even better than that.

You may have lost track of what should be done many times again and again...
But again and again find it! and try and do better, be better...
even though it's very hard.

And lastly, do not EVER think that You are the one that only failed...don't take the blame all by yourself... of course you have a large part in it. just kidding.

But we your friends in a way or two have failed also...

yes, we failed as friends.

Friends who will teach and guide you.

Not just leave you as you are.

And that is why always remember your failure is not for yourself alone but ours to carry as well.

dramatic? yes it is.

but its reality.

and its the truth.

no matter what, we're here...

- monder

How do feel?

2006-08-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

Caring for someone.
Loving someone.
I am new to this world.
Perhaps not even born in it.
I grew up in a all-boy environment.
And caring for a member of the other
Loving in that matter, I never did have one.
And until today, I still don't have one or maybe there is.
I don't know.
Whether its it or not.
Just a feeling or not.
Love?
I wish I'd knew.
I wish I can see through.
But that would make it easy and that's not it.
It's better to know.
Even when you are not what you think you are.
Even if you know it will hurt...by the way how does it feel to be hurt?
I don't know.
This one-sided feeling.
Like those in the comics...
Is it only one-sided? or will be a happy ending
Just like what Iori and Ichitaka had?
I wish! ^_^

-monder

D-day - 1: crap, crap, crap mali ang d-day..haha

2006-08-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today, I was excited. Jehuty will be good as new! So we went to the PC shop and upgraded him.
I changed the motherboard for good, then added 1gb RAM, and oh yeah! 256mb video card!
Then they tested him and he was good.
So we went home.
Exceited.
I quickly plugged him to the avr and plugged all the parts needed.
And upon pressing the start button!
...
..
.
NOTHING HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH $(*#&($#&*%#&%(&#*%(&#

I don't why....but I am really sad...
and yeah btw

tom. is course card...
bummer.

-monder

D-day - 3: Mistaken Meeting Day!!!

2006-08-29T10:09:00.000+08:00

I woke up today light headed.

It was already 8 am and I have a meeting at 10 at Campus.

I hurriedly ate, dressed up and went off.

The mrt broke down and I had to wait...and I was worried that I'll be late...

only to find out that the meeting had moved to Sept 1.

Mega Super Duper Big Bummer!

Now, I am at our favorite place but with noone to kill, nor to disturb or to chat with....only Ate anna and kuya ed!

grrrrrrrrr~ rawr!!

I shoulda continue sleeping if I knew this would happen...

Tiring Day (D-day - 4)

2006-08-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

4 Days before DDay
3 Days after hectic thursday
2 Days after the Finals

1 Day after INTRODB

Aug. 27, 2006

Sunday

A Day not to be Forgotten

Four Things that Happened

1. Visited My Cousin and Ate, Learned a lot...

2. Drove, drove

3. Ate with my dad's relatives, drove

4. got tired.

-monder

Semi - post test Dilemnas

2006-08-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

may relstwo pa bukas.

di pa tapos.

hehe

la lang. XD

A Shred Of Hope Comes Along My Way

2006-08-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

Even though it is small, a speck of hope came along my way.
Along with it, the hopes of a peaceful and relaxing termbreak.
Though, it is only small, I am grateful that such hope still exists.
And I know that when I use that tiny hope and sprinkle with hardwork.
I will be able to grow that hope to infinity.

Gibberish?

yeah I know,

Monder

And So It Begins Once Again.

2006-08-11T12:50:00.000+08:00

No matter how hard I try to avoid it.
It always happens.

Now I have to face it again.

On the verge of life and death...

Reporting for Duty ^^,

2006-08-10T16:34:00.000+08:00

Reporters just happened to pass by just this moment.
All of them nervous.
One, somewhat nervously angry...
Another, nervously nervous.
The 3rd was just plain nervous.
Friends got before them.
Also reporters.
What happened really isn't important.
What's important is its finished.
And another priority becomes reality.

Thanks God.

- Monder

Procrastination

2006-08-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

Tommorow...

Later....

then never....

that's procrastination...

It destroys, it hurts, and it sucks. ^_^

Actual Look at Life

2006-08-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

Life.

One Word. Two Sides.

Up and Down.

There is no middle.

Sometimes we are happy. Sometimes we are sad.

We feel alive. Yet we still feel dead.

During these times of despair, frustration and sorrow.

One's heart simply can't take it, yes, I know the feeling.

You simply can't force a smile because it will just show how you are hurting inside.

During these times also we think that our lives are just pointless.

But this outlook is simply the effect of the pressures that surround us.

And I thing I can say about how to come back to focus is to ask questions to one self.

Questions which will not make you down but instead will make you realize what you must do.

What you really must do.

When you feel like not studying anymore and just want to lie down.

Start thinking, Is this really what I want?

What is my dream?

What have been I doing to reach that dream?

Think about your parents.

How can you repay them?

These questions cannot be answered instantly. Just do it step by step.

But its just whenever I ask myself these questions, I wake myself up even just for a while.

Even though you still can't do it. At least you try and try and wake up again and again to reality and to what you really must do.

There is more to life than just grades, but you know a good grade is one answer to your parents how you show them gratitude.

I am not saying that I am an achiever nor a good person but I am trying.

And searching, and looking, for answers along the way.

It's not all the time we are happy and accept that, but I think we can but of course with sacrifice.

Right now my dream is to creat a video game.

Tis funny that right now, i am lazy to finish my course works and other stuff.

But when I asked myself, do you really want to create a video game? Then go study.

Another thing is balance: a thing which is also hard to do.

But balance is good.

Haha I don't know what I am talking about anymore.

So I think it's time to call it done.

Just think positive and do immediate goals first, goals which as much as possible can contirbute to your long - term goal.

Last thing is aside from these goals. While you're at it. Search for your mission in this world, its hard but every now and then, think of how you can realize it and find it. ^_^

Till then keep rocking alive!

-megamond

Machine Projects

2006-07-31T20:02:00.000+08:00

Ever made a machine project?

It's frustratingly fun! Try it!

Available at Computer Science Colleges nationwide!!

Grab One Now!!

Dog in the rain

2006-07-23T09:01:00.000+08:00

That Dog in the rain

Soaked in fear and water
Of this damned world
A broken leash on its neck
He walks for shelter
Yet deprived…pushed away
Trembling, slowly weakening
Cold kisses his bare skin
Eyes just watched
Iron balls on their legs
The sky slowly stopped crying
The poor thing stopped breathing
Laid down on concrete
Waiting to rot and wither
As people passed by

About Officership

2006-07-23T08:48:00.000+08:00

Its easy to say that you want to become the president of some organization.
But its hard to do that.
Heck, it's hard even to a simple officer.
Being an officer means commitment and perseverance.

If you don't have these, then you are not cut to be an officer.
You must have also time management, if you don't, at often times, being an officer will kill the time for your normal you.

Also, at projects, if you plan to be the head, be ready for anything.
If members do not come, its your fault.
If the show is not good, its your fault.
And the organization takes the shame.
But I don't mean that if you do a project it must be perfect.
No...we must learn from mistakes that we have made and
from those mistakes create something new in the future
that would improve your skills as an officer or a project head.

One doesn't really fail but only makes adjustments.
The road is far and you only just took a step to the finish line.

Post Midterm Chaos #2

2006-07-16T19:11:00.000+08:00

Another hell week this will be.

Brace myself I must be.

Study, study I really must.

Resist temptations and myself must trust.

Midterm Chaos #1

2006-07-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

Midterm chaos is here.
After which projects come
Hope I won't shed a tear
Till I get them all done.

With Writers Guild Officer I am
Yes Sir, General Assembly here we come
But ask I just say
Sana ay ang mga members ay mag stay
at magsaya!

-Mond

Early Morning Ramblings#4

2006-06-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

I am like my computer game avatar.

His statistics are almost equal, but has mastered none.

The same goes with me, I have a lot of skills yet I can't choose one and excel at it.

A jack of all trades but master of none.

I know it would be good if I could be best at all my skills but its hard to do so.

Yet with this realization, I plan to start and to start means picking first one of my skills
and continue it, harness it and improve it. Concentrate on that primary skill then proceed to
my secondary ones.

But which skills, well we have to find out.

Tiresome Afternoon #1

2006-05-15T15:19:00.000+08:00

Approx. 7 days till schooltime.

7 days...

4 days taken away for I will be outside town.

3 days remaining

1 spent today for generally nothing..

1 day tommorrow which will technically be the last vacation day for me.

The end of my short vacation.

The end of goals not met.

Yet still...I know

It will the start of another and another

Till I achieve them all.

Early Morning Ramblings #3

2006-05-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

Megamall Sale = Frustration = low gas = go home.

Friend's Bday = eat = food = fat = beer = busog = pagod.

Home = bed = happy = ten - ten = smile.

after wedding, then comes a birthday then what

2006-04-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

wedding, I ate all they served well not exactly all but most of it.

that additional fat

then tom is the birthday of one of my closest friends

additional fat

What a big bummer since one of my goals is this is to get thin.

and that is not going to happen hahaha.

Facial Spa

2006-04-25T05:28:00.000+08:00

Just got a Facial Spa yesterday and it's supposed to be relaxing but it's not! T_T, the hardest part and the painful part is where the attendant pinches all those blackheads whiteheads and stuff. Crap I thought I was going to lose my nose...

What if he was Jesus?

2006-04-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

Evening, just came from a birthday party.

Then a stranger at our gates asks for help. Apparently he was homeless because their house was caught in fire...I didn't entertain him nor did my brother.

1 thing stuck us though what if he was Christ asking for help...*sigh

Big Level up Needed

2006-04-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

Just got my character in RF online to lv35 after 4 grueling months. Yet still I'm not satisfied.. ^_^ I want more. But I think more than games and such, I need something more of a level up not only for my characters but for myself as well. I'm already 18 and must move and act like an 18 year old. It's hard to act mature when your heart still yearns for it's childishness. I am full of childishness and that is why it is so hard to grow up XD. But yes, got to take it slowly and ENJOY summer first lolz.

Ja! ne!

Early Morning Ramblings #2

2006-04-14T01:34:00.000+08:00

...

Argh! Still Sleepy but got to play RF!

I nid 20 Million dalants!! rawr! XD

Still tired from the driving session I had yesterday.

Pero oks lang naman kasi nagpizza hut naman wahahaha saka I got to see my cousin.

And also raise my Driving PT somehow... >_<

Although I did some mistakes but I we got home safely.

Thanks God for that.

Thanks to God for making me alive today and thanks for the blessings that he'll give me today.

Early Morning Ramblings #1

2006-04-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Can't read naruto...I wonder why. Maybe A.D.A. is so much corrupted already and doesn't want me to read haha but I wonder really why.

Ah the peace of early mearnings yet the loneliness it brings. No one to talk to nor share laughter or stories. But hey I can think about a lot of things hehe and also could play online games wee~.

Still, though lately i've been messed up, and this Holy Week or Lenten Season when everyone's contemplating and renewing, still I'm back with my ol bad habits, I have changed a week ago well not really changed but I have held one of my bad habit but then again I lost control just after a few days... sigh I really don't know..It's really hard to get out of a habit that you have been so used to..hey but it's not drugs! or anything or even soking and drinking..it's another. ^_^ but I won't tell, it's for me to keep and for you to find out.

Till then, ciao! ja!

Summer

2006-04-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

Hmm since summer is here?

I wonder what to do next?

2 Down 2 More to Go Then Heaven Knows

2006-04-06T14:29:00.000+08:00

2 Final Examinations have passed, and 2 more are coming...tommorrow and the daya after towmmorow.

Then whether it's happy times or not it's up to Him, and of course up to me as well.

Anyway go to study yoh! ^_^

Last Stretch

2006-03-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

5 4 3 2 1

Here we go.

Finals.

Here I come.

At last peace...

Tom. is the day i die.

2006-03-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

But then again I won't

Life goes on.

Let's go...

2006-03-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

6 days till I die...

2006-03-20T12:23:00.000+08:00

Confusion State: Dangerous

Porcrastination

Laziness

Two things you can do with easily

Two things that will destroy you.... easily.

Can't understand myself.

It's so hard to.

Sands of Time

2006-03-14T20:59:00.001+08:00

Sands of Time
Slowly being emptied into the ground below
And they all fall on me
Like the rain
Slowly covering me
If I don't get out
I'll won't be able to anymore
Unless I do something

2006-03-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

Confusion Rate: a little less.

Just got left out from my friends. The sections in which I supposed to be got closed. Very lucky. Haha. But I think it's a punishment for me. Not exactly a punishment but something even more. Something which somehow made me realize that I shouldn't be slacking off. A realization that I should be more mature and be more independent. I should not depend so much on my friends who made the schedule for me, but that doens't mean that I shouldn't be with them. It's just that this incident opened my eyes that I can't be with them forever and we'll be separated just like HS. But heck I'll still follow their scheds no matter what. ^_^. Walang iwanan.

Though it's still damn depressing...sucks. XD lolz.

Three weeks.

Three weeks to pass, three weeks to endure, and wait for the grass that's pure.

Then lie down and rest.

after the final test.

A New Hope: Episode 3

2006-03-08T12:13:00.000+08:00

Third Term. Last Few Weeks. A new hope has reborn out of me. Well it's my not my style to give up anyway. So Ganbatte to me and to all my friends.

When you set your mind into it, you can do it.

So Fast, End so Furious

2006-03-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

My 1st year in college is about to end and the ending is somewhat hectic and chaotic. A lot of things to do and to accomplish. I haven't formally started my machine project and a lot of tests are coming this week. Sigh* I really hope that all will pass and I will pass this last few weeks before summer break. I really want to rest. Well Good Luck to me.

A new leaf, err true?

2006-03-02T08:28:00.000+08:00

Confusion State: Normal

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday and as a Christian Tradition, you have to receive the mark of a cross of ash on your forehead. This tradition has always been part of my Christian life ever since I was but a small child. That time I didn't know what it meant and I think until know I still don't know what it really means. I always try to repent and change myself but change really is a long process and it's hard. Now, that I have received another reminder on my forehead. I wonder...if I can really change into a new leaf and let go of my bad habits. Well let's see.

Clear Confusions

2006-02-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

Clear Confusions

Confusion state: Normal
Mood: at peace entering storm.

On of the most difficult things in life is finding yourself. Though you are who you are and you see yourself in the mirror. Still you can't seem to find yourself. Pieces of you are scattered everywhere waiting for them to be found.

-Monder Rhaye